argh

head is kinda heavy..shldn't have drank tt much..
sob.. am reali disappointed with my group's colleauges.. they just dun treat me as one of them coz i'm an intern??? perhaps i'm too sensitive or wat but action proves it all. si xuan is leaving and den her mentor (uncle) is inviting almost everyone from my group fer a gathering.. so they were happily chatting abt where and what to have fer lunch rite in front of me.. i was already like kind of sian coz i know they wun ask me along..but den i still waited fer "uncle" to invite me and he just walked off after discussing every thing with si xuan and the rest without even asking if i'm interested to join them. wth lo.

i was like so extra and outcasted and SAD. den i waited till lunch time and the "uncle" came to confirm the time with them again. and i was hoping that he will at least last min inform me abt the gathering.. but no. he ignored me totally. FINE. afterall i thot it was just a farewell party fer si xuan and my presence ain't tt important too. but am realli hurt. am i realli that difficult to get along with?? or perhaps i'm not active enuff.. argh.. watever! they shld be the one who approach me rite.


such a big company with all these colleagues gonna drive me nuts. i know they are good people but sum of them just doesn't seems to like me coz my intuition tells me so.


am not so anti social as what ur have thot thou i din manage to join in the moon cake festival gathering in the evening.. sigh! e&y sucks can. how can i possibly get along with ur when ur dun even have the intention to make frenz with me and sum of them even show me black faces as if i owe them $$. wat's worse.. sum of them like to stare or give me that kinda weird look. crazy them!


too tired to continue further. the attachment is killing me and i jus hope it will end earlier.